fear and paralysis

no, that is not this week's inspiration. it is today's realization. today i was stuck firmly across the face with the hard truth that i cannot get out of my own way and trust myself to continue moving forward. to illustrate what the hell i'm talking about, here's a choose-your-own-adventure blog post (the words in all-caps are placeholders - feel free to fill in with whatever you want while you are reading):

YOU are a creative person. YOU totally enjoy expressing yourself through many forms of creativity, but in particular through your ART. YOU constantly think about ART, dream about being able to do ART all day and actually be paid for doing so! Every day is a challenge to find ways to incorporate ART into your life, with some days more successful than others. Yet YOU try to not get yourself down about it and recognize that tomorrow is a new day and offers 24 new hours to do ART.

Suddenly, one morning, an announcement flashes across the sky - like a lightening bolt writing in cursive across the clouds "Do you want to do ART for a living? We're looking for someone just like YOU to do ART with us!". The rest of the message provided the information on when and whom to contact, and that there was no cost associated with putting YOU up for consideration. What do YOU do? (Choose one option below)

A. YOU quickly look away, pretending that YOU didn't see it, while secretly planning for how YOU were going to participate later that day.

B. YOU jump up out of your chair and announce, fist in the air, "YES! This is my time! Onward trusted companions. We have ART to do!"

C. YOU silently look away, knowing they wouldn't want you anyway so why even bother. Oh, and you can't really afford to take that risk. So just shut the window shades and go about the day please.


Which option did you pick?